Hello Stranger

26 08 2014

It’s been a while. Don’t know why I haven’t been writing, I just… haven’t.

*sigh* I guess it’s more a case of not having had anything to write, which is likely caused by not being uncontrollably mental… kinda suggests that I’m currently somewhere in the outer reaches of sanity. An almost accurate summation of things.

I’ve been feeling sketchy for a while, but it’s been sliding into instability. That means I’m back on a higher dosage of, ahem, medication. All the old, familiar traits haven been surfacing, including (but not limited to) Tourrettes style twitching, inability to tolerate company for extended periods, and of course the classic intense suicide ideation.

I……. I don’t know…. I wanted to vent but I can’t seem to do it to a satisfactory level. Words, sentences, paragraphs, these things are failing to materialise into any cohesive structure to help.

Fuck, I’m even delving into verbosity… balls. Not exactly what I’d hoped for. Time to abandon post and try again another time

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