‘Sometimes I do reread what I’ve written and I can see that some people would be thinking that “life is hard but you can’t let it kill you”. A fair and valid point in my opinion but that doesn’t actually translate into me liking it. No I don’t have to like it, it’s life, it keeps going, but that doesn’t mean it has to keep going for me.

I don’t want to die, I’d much prefer not to, sounds a bit strange but there’s a lot I’d miss. Unfortunately, in my head there doesn’t seem to be an alternative, I think that my spirit has truly been broken, and whilst I’ve done well against the odds for 20 years I admit I am defeated. Depression is a war I’ve won many battles against but the tide has turned against me.

Yeah, it’d be best for all concerned, including me, if I wasn’t here any more.’

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